Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Rebuilding

You tell me to go for it. You encouraged me. You made me break the walls surrounding me, and then you withdraw.. leaving me exposed.

I'm no Mantra, but I can tell you this.. I'm going to build back those walls, make them even stronger than before. So that when the time comes, they will never break down again.

Deserted

Pretty sure that this blog now has, absolutely no one following it.
After all, it has been more than a year since I last came here.

So why am I back?
Last I recall, a blog allows one to express themselves does it not?
That being said.. With close to zero people seeing this, I guess it's fine to let my inner thoughts run free.

There's just so many unanswered questions in my head right now. And I'm sure that everyone can relate to that statement.
So what are mine?
These are only a few of the many I want answered.

What am I to you? Do I even have any value in your life?
Do you know what you're doing? If you do, then why?
Do you understand the consequences of your actions?
Is this what you truly want?
Are the hints you give off real?

I, out of disbelief, really want some answers to these questions.


A piercing pain is present in my heart.
It has been killing me inside, though I don't show it.
After all, I am good at hiding things. I am good at deception. You, of all people, know that.
The sleepless nights, the ever-wandering thoughts, the quiet moments within our conversations.
Need I mention more?